Today is a great day. I just left my last drawing class which makes me sad, but I saw a hair tie on the ground when I left so my mood insantly changed to happy again. I learned a lot in that class, if any of you have the chance to have Rob Hawkes as a professor-- I highly recommend him! Hopefully I will have him again in later Drawing classes if I am around here.
Let's talk about attraction. Crushes are so fun! Isn't it great how two people can be completely attracted to eachother and they don't even have to say anything. You can just tell by body language, the way eyes squint and sparkle when you're looking at something you really admire. The way you have to look away for a minute to prevent yourself from oogling. It's just a crush, it will always be a crush and I'm okay with that. It's exciting. You know there's those people you meet in life that will just be crushes due to certain circumstances. There is a metaphysical bonding though and you feel that you were connected at some point in time. mmm.. I love eyes. haha. This crush was so funny because I knew he was crushing back. Everytime I talked to him he stared at me like he was listening, and I think he was really trying to. But then he'd smile and say, "I'm sorry, what?" It's like he couldn't help it. It was cute. So I made him feel extra uncomfortable. Then he would start talking like Steve Martin in "The Jerk" when he tried to first ask Bernadette Peters on a date. HAHAHA. Anyway my point is crushing is fun. :) There's no other feeling like it.
If you haven't seen Syncedoche, NY don't read any further if you don't want me to spoil it for you.
The crushing thing also reminds of Phillip Seymore Hoffman when he and "Hazel" have their strong attraction for each other in Synecdoche. It's time I did some deep analyzing of this film. I saw it Friday night at The Naro. It was intense, over the top, disturbingly funny in some parts, and disturbingly sad in others. I didn't love it by any means. It's a movie I'd watch every 5 years or something. I COMPLETELY UNDERSTAND the main idea of the movie though, I think Kaufmann did a great job getting his point across. As an artist, I feel like he does a lot. Almost everyday. He was trying to create art so real by documenting every aspect of one's life. What's more real than documenting? I love the creepiness he threw in having someone follow someone else for 20 years, haha. I also love how he turns and messes everything up in the end though. People may think that they can know and understand someone by watching and listening, but you can't get inside someone's head. You can try, but we're all different. We all have different ways of processing our own thoughts. It really is impossible. So I guess if you feel you find someone that understands you that really "gets" you, don't lose that person. It's hard to find.
Towards the end of the film when the priest is speaking my mouth hit the floor. I couldn't blink I was so infatuated with what he was saying. So true. I can't wait to read the actual script! It was so much to take in during one sitting, so I'm sure I missed a lot. The priest says something about how "there's 13 million people in the world and there are no extras and everyone is a leader in their own lives." BRILLIANT. It was beautiful. This movie reminded me of "CQ/ Seek You" in the way that there are so many levels of documenting in order to achieve the most realistic art possible. To be a real artist I think that's what we're all striving for. To be real some of us try to achieve that in sick ways. haha. I'm guilty of that. ;) As far as documenting someone else though... It's exciting, surprising, and enlightening once you start documenting the changes that happen to someone other than yourself, you become a whole new piece of art in itself. There are so many levels. It never stops. Kaufman did a great job illustrating that.
There are a few things I don't understand in the movie. I don't know if Kaufman threw them in there just to throw off his audience? Like why was Hazel's house burning for years? I hate how things ended with Hoffman and his daughter. If you are creative and you are consciously aware that you are creative, I recommend seeing it.
I'll end on this note... The priest in the movie also says something about how long Earth has been around and how humans have only taken up an extremely minor fraction of that time. To dig even deeper, each individual's life is drastically smaller. Almost like our lives are a second. With or without this realization, humans as a whole constantly wait around for their lives to start happening. They put their lives in the hands of external factors. We have choices we make everyday. God ultimately, I believe, is the deciding factor, or the one supporting us if you wish. God wants us to make choices, that's how we learn. Anyway, our lives are so short we should never hesitate. Don't wait. Tell someone you love them if you do. Look at the big picture. Smile at strangers. Just do your part to make this a better place. I totally just got Michael Jackson's "Heal The World" in my head.
Belle & Sebastion will fix that. Take care! <3333
