It's time.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! It's been 3 months ya'll! Wow, it's so easy to give into habits. I seriously doubt anyone is looking at this now, which provokes me to be even more open.. ;)

I'm not going to give an update on my life right now because I don't feel like it. Not that there isn't much to say because there is, grand things at that, I just have Woody Allen's Vicky Cristina Barcelona on the brain right now.

I watched it for the first time last September in the theater with 3 guys (one of which was my boyfriend at that time). That was not a wise decision on my part. I wasn't able to fully accept the brilliance and beauty in the story. Part of that was because my boyfriend at the time immensely disliked it and his thoughts and words were so strong they were indirectly hammering down any adverse thought that I had. I rewatched VCB today and I am so thankful I did.

Eleven months ago, I felt ashamed of my opinions on the movie. Afterwards, I didn't even feel like I could tell my current boyfriend about my genuine appreciation for Allen's realistic portrayal of the confusion love can breed in relationships. Whoa, did you get that last sentence? ;) I felt so guilty telling him that I saw nothing wrong with the love triangle between Maria Elena, Cristina, and Juan Antonio. In my eyes, it was just another couple trying to find their way and doing what they could to make things work. Let me state how much I adore Penelope Cruz also. She expresses tormented, feisty, and sexy so well. I admit that Vicky's character annoyed me but I felt like I understood her emotions. She was so judgmental and rigid at first, but then gave into the contrary. We're all finding our ways and learning with every action (hopefully). Hypocrisy is so necessary to learn sometimes.

Mother effer. I just had to take a 25 minute pause, because I started getting so excited and inspired and had to express certain things to other people. This is why I haven't written in 3 months. When I'm writing, the creativity is flowing. When I'm not, it isn't, and then I'm not overwhelmed. I know I need to figure out how to manage my ideas better, but I'm just about shaking with all of the ideas that have just come to me over a 3 month dry spell. AHHHHHH!

Crap. I have to go meditate or something.

p.s.

I'll post more when I doctor up my computer. She's sick.

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None of them bring me any closer to you..

eh, I'm just having a moment. :)


Close your eyes, press your cheek against a cool surface, and listen:

Mark Velasquez's work...

There is a link to his blog to the left, which will redirect you to his other sites also:

http://markvelasquez.blogspot.com/

I absolutely love his work. He does a lot of sensual feminine shots.. By sensual I mean nude and he has a sensual, genuine way with words in expressing the model to his audience. He's one of those artists that I can't not look at his work even if I wanted to. Each story is so intriguing. He is a captivating writer. Whether his encounters are brief with these women or not I'm not always sure, but he does a great job illustrating that he "gets" it. I find that rare to come across in men. That's not to put men down, it is just that some are more perceptive than others. I know I know, the same can be said about women too.

You truly have a gift Mark! I hope to work with you one of these days! :)

:)

Nothing too hi-tech here, just a way for me to look at SF pics fast... and you too, if you wish.

All I know is...

I know nothing.

ha. no. but yea.

I know that this time last week, I was changed. I walked into my first boutique in SF and when The Rolling Stones' "She's like a rainbow" came on, everything seemed a bit clearer for a minute. I love seeing things in a whole new light. :) The song specifically brought me back to this amazing commercial that I hadn't thought of in a while:




Just because everyone should watch these if they haven't:







Where did that clarity go???